Cross road...

Im about to embark on a new move, a HUGE one... one that involves leaving the main land... I'll update you as I finalize my plans.


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I really need to save money....

I need to be alone right now....

I really just want to be alone right now. There are things I have on my mind and I need to sort them out. I will let you know when things are figured out. Til then, I will be hand writing on my journals. I need the solitude... Someone made me so painfully aware that I was missing something and now, I need to figure out how to deal with it....

Bye for now.

-Sharon

p.s. This is a good thing =)

Andre the Giant..

Yesterday I beat the odds and today is a new day! Life is amazing and I want to document the beauty of it all. I bought my first SLR camera yesterday. I've wanted one for years but had put it off because of the usual excuse, "There will be next time." There most possibly would be a next time, but I want to live for the less than likely event that this is our last time.

I took it to the park yesterday and learned how to mount the lenses on my own haha.. I didn't know so much as to how to turn it on. I will get better though. Being a photographer, the world becomes a stage. All of a sudden, I am the on-looker and everything is trying to impress me. Its truly beautiful.

P.S. I have Leo to thank for this inspiration. His photographs are incredibly captivating. http://www.flickr.com/photos/herbiehancock00/

Feeling Funky...

I've been feeling depressed lately. I don't know what is causing it. I haven't had the motivation to do much more than get out of bed during these past 3 days.

I don't like this funk Im in. It IS about time I feel this way though. I was feeling overly positive before this phase.

ugh...

I feel like dead weight. What is it? I wonder.

I have a few theories but I don't want to publicly debate through them. Sometimes, we all just need time to ourselves. Ill be fine.

We all go through these gloomy days.

Get your passports OUT and lets go!!!

Something terrible happened to me this morning and I am realizing that it is time to walk the talk. My life flashed before my eyes, not the past but the future. I realized that there is so much I want to do and I don't want to miss a thing.

I am going to start planning my trip around the world and I am going to make the best of every moment, even more so, from now and ON!!!

WHO WANTS TO TRAVEL??? Lets Go!

so much more...

God! I love writing!!! The Freedom!!!!

I love looking back at the years too!! AH! So many people and a whole lot-a good times.

The future excites me tooo!!! Wah! Travelling, Masters-school!, San Francisco!, Saving the WoRLD! AH! And then my accident baby with my man of my dreams. haha.. And all the books Im going to read along the way. Wow..

Does this mean that I just totally love my life? AH! Hell yeah!

Its not the best life and dammit! I've had so many rough, down-in-the-dirt moments but through it all, I've always managed to take the best of it and let the rest go. I wonder if my mom and dad being stoned when they made me has anything to do with my care-free-ness. hahah.. funny..

Sigh...

Looking at the past brings me so much happiness, and ohh so much pain too. Don't we all long to be as naive as our childhood again? I dont think that feeling ever leaves. That pain though, that longing, is a testament to a life well lived. The greater the longing the more you know you had it good. =)

Life now is good too. There is something I would LOVE to have in my life right now but at the end, I could wait. Life has so many possibilities and there are so many paths to the same destination! Im flexible, Ill trek my way though and one day, "one day" it will be mine!

The future is hopeful.

Sigh... Smile... hmmm... a side glance to the right... few good thoughts.. a sting to the heart, a life well lived and so much more...

-Sharon

One day

I just got the rug pulled out from under me and faaaaahk! It was beautiful.... Do you remember when I told you that I can't wait to come across that "thing" that would stop me dead in my tracks? Well this past weekend it came across me and now Im flabergasted and stupefied! Wow... It was amazing to come across something beautiful enough to make me want let go of my self and "chase". Here I am, following my passions- doing what my heart desires and out of no where, this thing, this magnet, this gem shows up and I am distracted. I am wondering what everything important to me means if I can't have this thing too? I know I sound rash and impulsive but, it felt so right. ohhh.... my.... god... Im mush...

Luck has it though that I can't have it. Talk about cruel irony huh? Its a joke. So here I am stranded with a yearning-heart and a hopeless wish.

All there is left to do is continue to live and let time take it away from my thoughts, my desires, my options... I will live and I will be happy, but I will never know what would have been had "it" become a part of my life. It is not the end. There is always that little "one day" hope. =) One day!!!

For now, I will trek on and do what I do best, LIVE!!!! :P

Life is amazing...